That’s what what I’m afraid of.
Losing you, all of you.

some people hurt others unintentionally.
some people hurt others intentionally.
if you use others to hurt someone, that sucks.

my heart doesn’t skip when i see you.
it’s more like why-must-i-see-you feeling instead of happy.
i can read you.
you don’t want me to be close to you too.

from good friends to hi-bye friends.
wait, i still wonder if you even greet me along the stairs and corridors.

bosco i miss you.
i wish you were here.
we are 4,000 miles apart.

Time.
Spend time with them,
Gain trust,
Tell them your troubles,
Build good relationship,
Misunderstandings and quarrels,
Talk it out,
Be best of best again,
And live happily, maybe ever after. If possible.

That’s me now.
And I think it is all worth it.
To go the extra mile,
To spare a day with a friend,
To sacrifice and bless someone.

These are things you really will need to do in order to have a strong relationship.

And I really thank God because I have people around me who are willing to and I’m willing too.

haha.

anyways.
sometimes i wonder what will i feel like if i had my own room.
i will definitely paint it with pink.
hang some lovely photos and princess crowns
and some spongebob characters too (L)

although you’ll have a lot of privacy and space but i feel that sharing a room is great too.

like yesterday night my parents were talking really loud during bedtime and so i tried to ask them to keep quiet.
it’s kinda funny listening to their conversations.
and sometimes when we know we’re still awake in the dark room, we’ll usually chat and laugh at lame stuffs because we’re all tired.

it’s fun having to share your room.
esther has her own room.
jolene wants her own room.
but for me, i can sleep anywhere in the house.
i can even sleep in the balcony.

as long as the place isn’t dry for my skin and cold making me feel disgusted.

i really wanna start cutting down on my input of food but there’s so many things to temp me like recently i just date them and gary suggested steamboat.

i’m really enjoying my holidays but it would have been more perfect if i had no more assignments to complete.
the month of december is here and yet i only completed half of everything.
2 more weeks to get everything done so that i can enjoy my hongkong trip :)

i’m really okay now.
be it emotionally, mentally maybe not physically.
i had my 3rd i-don’t-know-why pain yesterday night.
it was horrible because it was already 2 and i was in the toilet for 1 hour.
(as usual like the 1st and 2nd time.)
but it was really bad because the air was really cold and DRY.
i hate dry, detest it in fact.
this morning i had the urge to puke and i felt a little weak.
God please heal me :(

life’s been okay.
a little emo-ing at times because of some bad thoughts and assumptions but awesome people made difference eg my cute family and cousins and the loveliest spongebob family :)

Yiruma’s pieces ARE SO LOVELY.
my future boyfriend must learn how to play muahhaha.

i did something to my hair!
see it when i see you.

taiwan tornardo rocks to the max.
bingo.

okie i gtg and do my work.
byebye!
don’t wanna caught blogging and get myself fired!

Anyways today’s sermon is about trust.
Trust me friends. I trust you guys too :)

I realized one selfish thing about us humans,
that we always want to make people jealous
how ever when we are jealous of people, we don’t like it.

People like it when others are jealous of their expensive gadgets, great fashion styles and pretty faces.

I don’t like it when people gets jealous of me and sometimes I just don’t know why they are, well I’m not them.
They will dwell on it, think about how much they want it and yet I ended up having it.
And then they will start to dislike and hate me.

It sucks more.
But the thing is, you can’t do anything about it.

Getting jealous, being jealous is a choice. Turn around and tell yourself, I don’t need it, I’m contented with whatever I have now.

And I really am blessed:)))

Very. Extremely.

God is good. His blessings are abundant and I just have to boast about His awesome love.

I’m different.

What if one day I say,

I need you.

Will you be there for me?

Rephrase.

For her.

i’ll wait for him to cool down.
i was really disappointed with everything yesterday.
but still, i enjoyed myself and am glad that jiyu this gorilla came back.

but nevertheless, thank you best friend for the great great day.
i love you patrick star<3
too bad i didn't meet up with kor and gf :(

hey. wait for my next email okay.
i don't know what to do.
speechless. useless.

still remembered the first email you sent to me.
it was after paragon.
you cheered me up because i broke down.
despite me performing so badly, you still took the effort to comfort me,
that really touched me.

then do you remember the second mail?
you said before that my emails make your day
and now i hope it will just like the past.
it does brightened up your day right?

mr project work, like how you introduce yourself in your email,
we're sorry.